Well, permanently I mean. There are times I feel it, feel like I have some of the answers, but usually when I am talking to someone half my age, or find myself part of the older generation at a funeral and thinking, “Uh oh.” And is that not just feeling old?
Is this an actual stage or phase anyway? Or do we just learn to suppress our childish impulses from public view?
When I was a teenager( yes a million years ago now) I thought that being 30 meant I was grown up. It was as though when you got to this age you were taken to a room and shown the secrets of life, given all the answers to all the questions and delivered of sense and sensibility ( no, not the book). Then I got to 30, looked around me, examined my life and thought, “Oh shit, I think I know less now than when I was 18 and I understand absolutely nothing.”
I am 52 now and guess what, I still don’t know anything, but with one difference, I don’t care! I think, feel, love, worry, hope, cry and laugh lots……..but I know nothing.
Does this make me a grown up?